Curves again

I went to Curves again.  I've decided not to take the Wellbutrin, I'm going to keep going to Curves and try to get through this on my own.  Today while I worked out I was thinking, "While I'm here, I'm going to do this right.", and I worked out with intent.  I was the only one there, so there wasn't any distraction from my thoughts.  When I walked out I felt more alive, more fluid, I was moving more easily, and I realized that I actually felt good.  Sure I'm still fat and I still have rolls of extra skin, but I felt like I was connected to my body, instead of trapped inside of it.  I'm going to hold onto that feeling and practice what I preach, being more aware and positive.

When I left Curves I went to the grocery store to pick up ingredients for Jeff's wonderful curry casserole, which he's promised to make tonight.  I bought some dark chocolate covered almonds because they seem like the healthiest treat I can eat and I resisted so many things that I often struggle with.